pretty sure a bunch of pats fans follow me Y’ALL I WAS AT THE GAME TODAY AND LITERALLY TEARS FROZE TO MY FACE WHEN GRONK GOT CARTED OFF AND I’M A BIG HUMAN BABY MESS
i choked on 2 billion dicks doing 50 laps in a pack at practice thursday and i’m still pretty disappointed with myself but i skate 5 gd times this week so hopefully that will be helpful but it will probably mostly be injurous
whoops more derby stuffs
i practice hard. i work hard, i dig deep, i push myself way beyond my physical and, even more, my emotional and mental comfort zone. when i get screamed at to get low, i get lower. i watch my tapes and correct my posture. i practice the basics. i work on my balance. i do wall squats, sumo squats, month-long squat challenges. i watch old bouts online. when everyone gets down and does push ups on their knees i do full push ups. i go to every open skate on the island. but i still can’t fucking t stop, can’t plow stop, can’t scissor, slalom, can’t keep up with the pace line. can’t skate backwards, can’t do 27 in 5. i am nowhere near making the skills test. i feel it closing in on me. what if trying my hardest isn’t hard enough? if it wasn’t with work, who says it will be with derby? i know this is whiny as fuck but i’m keeping it for myself so hopefully i can look back on this in a month or two and cross off every skill on the list.
i feel like i’m regrowing my wisdom teeth but i think i maybe just fit my mouthguard poorly
i mega injured my butt in practice today to the point that i cant walk but im pretty excited for the bruises to come in cuz its gonna make a great snapchat
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